First Blog Ever

Hey Guys,

So this is my first ever blog, I’m still getting used to the whole system. I guess I’ll start by describing myself.

My name’s Rockshana, well not technically, it’s my stage name so but I’m going to use it on here, I don’t like people knowing my real name. I’m a stripper, I work at the Dancers Cabaret in Kings cross, Sydney, it’s one of my passions, I find it fun and I can’t help but love the rush, having men want me desperately gives me a kind of control. It sounds strange but I love having that dominance over who ever I’m dancing for at the time, or even the whole crowd. When I dance, men feel beneath me and so many of them will do almost anything to be with me, but don’t get me wrong, I don’t ever take an offer, that’s not what I like. I like to be unattainable to them all, but still “pull them along on a string” per se.

I’m Japanese although I was born and raised in Australia. For a while it was difficult being in a country that’s not exactly my own, I am Australian and I know no other place than here, but I had a difficult time fitting in I suppose because my dad believed Japanese women should be unspoken in another country, keep to yourself so that no one bothers you, but growing up I didn’t like acting that way. So I went through this weird transformation I guess, developing who I am, my identity. I had to segregate myself from my dad and become my own person but I couldn’t help feeling cut off, it wasn’t because I was or anything, it was because I just felt different from everyone else, they all lived a very ‘Australian’ way of life and I had roots in another culture. I kind of didn’t know where I belonged for a long time, I can’t speak Japanese apart from one or two words that everyone knows like konnichiwa, which means hello, or good day or something. So as you can imagine I can’t exactly run off and go to my Japan, my natural country nor could I be entirely Australian, the feeling was being torn between two country’s and not belonging to either at the same time, I couldn’t figure out exactly who or what I was. I think I’m still searching to a degree.

anyway I start work very soon, so I’m going to finish off here.

thanks for reading!

~ by rockshana on August 6, 2008.